Sunday, July 22, 2007
okay.. we finally finished it.
and i fail it.
so screwed.. haix
actually i not very disppointed over this..
it's something bigger tat make me so emo.
haix.. feel like running away.
running away from the acpc tat doesnt belong to me.
i only noe i feel like cryin..
yet my muscles are trying so hard to pull back.
those words tat i heard.
it's makin me more and more weak..
i dun wana care abt anything anymore.
im nco no more..
i wan to go back to my own life..
i dun belong here so i shld give up..
it's all wrong suddenly..
everything i did is nv seen.
my efforts.. i guess im really tired.
was super emo at tat period of time.
yet no one cares.
pretending nth happen, i really cant
it's just hurting too much..
i will look ahead and walk forward,
but nv will i cross tat path again.
sorry, but i cant stop it from hurtin..
im nv gona care..
mv gona bother abt anything..
im just me! i dun wan to hide now..
jane came to talk to me..
and i was super emo.
dun feel like speaking abt anything..
sorry for bein attitude.
i finally can let it go a little,
yet wad she say make me even more down.
i dun wan to listen i dun wan to hear!
but it meant too much to me,
tat makes me hurt so much and feel like running.
i wana scream i wana shout!
why is the world so unfair?
i lost everything..
i noe the answers le..
just go away!
i dun wan to go back anymore.
mayb u duno how much it hurts,
but im crying now..
as i type this post,
i feel like just giving up on everything..
working so hard is of NO USE.
i feel so USELESS no matter how hard i tried.
was super emo tat period of time..
saw u walkin to us.
and u went to talk and play with them.
totally ignoring me..
i guess i wasnt impt after all..
walked away with hl and hugged dg.
i noe the officers are lookin at us.
but i didnt wana bother,
sorry i guess i totally lost faith le..
all i need is just a little word of encouragement.
all i need is just some comfort.
even through sms,
it's more then enuff..
but i think i really giving up!
u are nv there..
never and i dun wan to think anymore..
shedding tears alone is painful.
