Saturday, December 22, 2007

i hav been very very troubled lately..
wan to find someone to talk to,
but there isnt ANYONE :(
it's feelin so so bad.
sms-ed LOADS of ppl,
just to talk to me.
so tat i can feel better yeah?
wana find someone to rely on,
but haix. who can i find?

i duno since when..
mayb like wad i said previously,
wad's not meant to be will always remains the same.
when things starts to get wrong rite from the beginning,
many many happenins will come as time goes by..
NTH TO SAY NOW.
cuz no one understand us well.
though there are ppl who understand us,
and will make good choices.
yet i can say no one noes us better then us ourselves.
no one feels as stronger as us,
a squad. 3805.
i hav been thinkin wad is wrong all these while.
and i really really wan to solve the prob,
but how?
i wan to scream and shout.
i wan to get myself out of this bloody shit!
i wan to cry and pretend nth had happened.

hav been thinkin whether i shld address this in the sjab blog.
i guess i refused to.
cuz it's not too nice rite?
yeah. it hurts me to noe tat we are no good ncos.
ken smsed pig ystd.
and he said sorry over the BFA.
well. dun say tat. if u are wrong,
the whole of PS is in wrong too:(
and from the bottom of my heart,
i really wan to ask 4007 squad.
are ur coms so not good?
feel like talkin to them.
but i guess the coms talk to them is better then us rite?

`4007, listen up.
this is wad i gona say..
listenin it is up to u guys.
WE, the ncos and ur coms, scolded u guys
even though u all are tired and low,
cuz we might u guys good.
we wan to push ur guys to reach beyond ur limits.
and to improve.
this process is supposed to bond u guys as a squad.
to make u guys grow stronger and tougher.
but guess it's not the method for u all.
yes, we understand how each and everyone of u feel.
we are cadets before,
gone through many more trainins.
yeah we didnt give up.
dun blame ur coms,
cuz u nv noe how much they put in for u all.
and the stress behind..
APPRECIATE the things they do for u all.
those uniforms and discipline.
improvements in footdrill and just the strength behind.
it's bcuz of the squad u guys came.
but it's cuz ur coms tat u all get to bond.
those trainins and parades,
they made the effort to come down,
no matter how tired we are.
or how busy we gets.
if tat little little things is not enuff,
i got nth much to say anymore..

u guys noe it deep down in ur heart,
whether u guys hav TRIED to put in more effort in doin footdrills,
when ur coms are takin.
although they nv train u guys,
but seein u all improved is happy for them.
yet when they take back,
u guys just SLACK i can say.
i noe it's hurtin..
and i understand u guys did put in tat little effort.
but u all noe the diff standard u all give.
to diff ppl. cuz of wad? i duno.
u all will noe it BEST urselves.
whether anot u guys are willing,
ultimately UR COMMANDERS are the one who is takin u all.
for the rest for the next half year.
we can change,
but only if u guys speak up.
if u dun dare to tell u commanders,
find any other senior.
i'm sure they can help u convey ur msg.
after everything, we all agreed tat,
no matter how tough it is to train u all.
how much energy is used up to get angry with u all.
by the end of the day.
it's all WORTHWHILE. cuz at least u tried.
tat's more then enuff.
but as u guys are becomin seniors,
we are not talkin abt just tryin,
but improvement and gettin stronger..
no one can be with u all forever,
stand up urself when u fall.
ur coms are just here to guide u through the first year of sj.
the ones who hav a long way to go through is u all.
we can ignore u all,
but we chose to do wad we think is the best.

after all these,
i can only say..
the words are from deep down inside of me.
how i feel and from the understandin of ur coms,
i noe they feel the same way too.
think abt it and dun complain.
cuz bein here in a UNIFORM GROUP,
is ur choice.
face the fact and get strong.
i wish u all the best wishes for the upcomin events.
work hard. u all can do it((:





*and lastly i can only say.
I LOVE SJAB MORE THEN ANYTHING.
but im really losin passion.
i need someone to talk to.
who is tat someone?
where are u?
i wan to run away from this prob..